Thursday, January 18, 2007
Loser - One that fails consistently, especially a person with bad luck or poor skills

Ok, enough of the 故弄玄虚.

No one seems to be interested in my new blog so I might as well publicise it. Boo hoo... I feel so loser now. Hahahhahaah...

Anyway, kudos to all you internet-resourceful peeps! (Just a few of you...) Well done for finding me at the new address! :)

Find me here! Ok la, part of the reason I'm publicising the new blog here is cuz I want you to give me comments on the look... Please take part in the poll or leave comments!!!

Cheers!!! :)

Wednesday, January 17, 2007
Labyrinth - Any confusingly intricate state of things or events; a bewildering complex

Hey friends, my blog has moved. I'm leaving the blogger community for greener and pinkier pastures. Hahhaa...

Find me if you can!

In the meanwhile, I'm going to keep this blog around. I mean, you never know when I'll come back to this blog again, right? :D

Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Try - To endeavour; to attempt

Q1: How much courage does it take to try?
A1: x

Q2: How much courage does it take to try and succeed?
A2: x

Q3: How much courage does it take to try and fail?
A3: x

Thus,

"It takes as much courage to have tried and failed as it does to have tried and succeeded." - Anne Morrow Lindbergh

Monday, January 15, 2007
Tired - To reduce or exhaust the strength of, as by exertion; make weary; fatigue

This is a true blue Blue Monday.

I had little sleep last night. Probably a cumulative of 3hrs?

I slept at 1.30am, woke up around 3am, and I was kept awake by sounds of coughing and a restless soul. And come 6am, the final little deep slumber I fell into was cut short by my sister-in-law's constant shouting at the girls, outside my door no less.

I was so frustrated but I kept my cool. It was not a Monday to be spoilt by me losing my cool. I am so tired, I have no strength to raise my voice or pump angry blood. I want to retreat into my little cave, but I have to be at work. I am so tired.

I'm taking a half day off. Unfortunately my finance department cannot churn something out for me and I will have to wait after lunch to make sure everything is in place, before I can go off. Maybe no need to go off even. I'm so tired.

I am so tired, but maybe I have the strength to continue until knock off.

Because we all know, once we manage to get out of bed on Monday morning, the week is initiated.

I am fine. I am just a little tired now.

Saturday, January 13, 2007
Move - To prompt, actuate, or impel to some action

If you have been praying, and doesn't seem to see it happening... take heart. I heard Pastor share a story, and something stuck in my head:

God heard our prayers. Somebody didn't move.

This is for a You who are disappointed.
This is for a You who wants to move. Someone out there needs you to MOVE.

Thursday, January 11, 2007
Conclusion - A result, issue, or outcome

Thank you friends for all your comments on the poll I did... and for all your pearls of wisdom :) I guess reading through the comments, fresh perspectives were thrown out which really brought out the point that life's really never about doing things the one fixed way, and we all exercise due flexibility and wisdom.

Well, having said that, my own conclusion will be that I'll base my future decisions on these 3 main questions I will ask myself, if I ever find myself in THE situation:

1) Is the issue settled in my heart?
ie. settling all the unnecessary emotions or overly-negative sentiments/negativity. Making sure I won't say hurtful things deliberately or bring in irrelevant arguments

2) Is the other party mature enough to hear what I have to say?
ie. is the other party known to be over-sensitive, not open to constructive advices, defensive, suspicious, immature...? Is the other person ready to hear something? Is this the best time to say it?

3) What is the end result I want?
ie. if I don't consider you important enough, forget it, I won't even bother to try to say anything at all, because saying it takes up toooo much energy (I'm energy-saving!) and the risks are too high. Risks of falling out, risks of being misunderstood etc. The action has to reap a positive outcome to be worthwhile. Hahha...

Oh well. Just musings anyway. Life's never a cardboard cut-out. Miracles happen on God's intervention and wisdom.. will definitely have chance to test out my theories in the future.

Wednesday, January 10, 2007
Conflict - Discord of action, feeling, or effect

Poll: If you are really upset over something someone did, do you..
1) Express it, but risk sounding emotional and petty?
2) Try to put it across really nicely, but have the other person think it didn't really bother you and thus not showing much care about it?
3) Resolve it in your heart and never say it

I think I tried all ways. Seems like everyway is wrong.

I am not normally the sort that is very temperamental or flares up in anger easily, so I see myself as reasonably reasonable. I hope I am right about myself. STILL, I find there's a problem when I communicate how I really feel, it's like, once you choose to do it, the other party is bound to feel bad/take it personally/feel incriminated ANYWAY.

Maybe when telling someone something unpleasant, no matter how nicely it is put, it's bound to "ouch".

In theory, it is advisible to communicate your feelings. But in practical, not everyone can handle it... myself included.

I am tempted to take the safe extreme, ie. 4) that is to not be so in touch with how I feel. In theory, that too is "wrong" because it is not healthy, it's not being "real with yourself", it's "suppression". My good brother Kianseh, who knew the old me, will roll his eyes if he ever know I reverted to my old self.

The paradoxes kill me. Can someone explain to me please?

Author's note: This post is really a general post... please don't link it to any recent event or put a context to it.

iPhone - The real iPod killer

Tuesday, January 09, 2007
Egg - Such a body produced by a domestic bird

Hmm, seems like everybody thinks that Jim looks delicious.

Good, good.

Hahaha.... :)

Monday, January 08, 2007
Monday - Start of the work week

I woke up unhappy today. In fact, I think I had unhappy sleep. I tossed and turned and thought my bones ached.

I looked at myself in the mirror this morning and I wonder why I am so skinny. No worries, I'm ok with looking skinny although I am always complaining about people saying I'm skinny. I am wondering why I'm so skinny because I am starting to wonder if my body is feeling depressed.

"A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones." - Proverbs 17:22

Joy, where art thou?

"A man's spirit sustains him in sickness, but a crushed spirit who can bear?" - Proverbs 18:14

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I received 2 blessings via sms today BEFORE I woke up. One may be a general mass sms, but the other one is from my cell member especially for me. She told me yesterday that I cannot have Monday blues today, that I must live out Pastor's message starting from Monday!

It's a good reminder, thanks.

But I only have strength to wake up. Entertain people I have to smile to for a while. Look normal at work.

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I think it is more than dichotomy.

Sunday, January 07, 2007
Clinch - To settle (a matter) decisively

The romance of the FA Cup... i don't care what others say it is.

For me, it's winning the match on the 90+'02 minute.

God bless Ole Gunnar Solskjaer :)

FA - Football Association

I'm watching the FA Cup game now, Man U vs Aston Villa...

3 things:
1. Why is the Villa goalkeeper wearing pajamas?
2. Henrik Larsson scores!
3. D*** that equaliser 1 minute ago. (74th minute)

Thursday, January 04, 2007
Drool - To drivel, or drop saliva

Check out this drool-worthy beauty... When my colleague sent me the photos... Aiyoooh... I was so tempted to ditch my O2...

Must. Control. Myself.

Wednesday, January 03, 2007
Plan - A design or scheme of arrangement

How the planning of my Wednesday went... in chronological order:

Yesternight: Dinner with ex-colleagues
Status: Cancelled
Reason: Organiser says too many can't make it... postponed.

This afternoon: Movies
Status: Alone, then cancelled (see next)
Reason: Everyone else watched Charlotte's web without me *pout*

After afternoon: Oh i just recalled got leaders' meet!
Correction: quekieduck reminded me there's leaders' meet
Status: Not going
Reason: mama says it's for LN1728 only

After after afternoon, ie. evening: Dinner
Status: No go
Reason: Jio-er found other kakis.. boohoo.

Knock off: Movies again
Status: see if got tix :X

Tuesday, January 02, 2007
Victory - a success or triumph over an enemy in battle or war

My first blog of the year!

I remember how I was never big on reflections and resolutions. I must have blogged about that last year. I guess I shall just roll along on this one, and I honestly have no idea what's gonna come up in the next few paragraphs or how many times I'd overwrite something I believe not suitable for the world wide web. Just write, something'll come up.

As I looked back at 2006, I felt like an invalid. Somehow the year zoomed past without my knowledge and I honestly do not really know how hours became days, and days became weeks and weeks became months and months added up to the year. It's like the bonus. After you get the lump sum, if you don't save it up or spend it on a big ticket item, slowly it'll deplete and you'll wonder where all the money went. Ok, lousy analogy, but something like that. Hahha..

We had a wonderful retreat over the Christmas weekend, and although I wasn't looking forward to spending Christmas away from home, I realised I was spending it with a bunch of fantastic people I call family as well. It was quite a good break and I think God really spoke to us. There's new strength and hope for the new year, and I feel optimistic that I will hear more from God in every area of my life, to be guided by the spirit. Yes, and to give up my rights to God.

I'll get there :p

It's going to be a year of victory ahead. I'm going to claim this!