Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Fond - Doted on; regarded with affection

My boss has gone on 1 week leave. Before she left, I was thinking, "Yeah! no boss for 1 week!"
Now that she's gone... I think I'll miss her.

And my mummy has been in KL since Sep. And she is not coming back until end next month! Boohoo...

Argh..! I don't like to miss people. *pout*

Monday, November 27, 2006
Alone - By oneself

Sometimes you throw a needle into the blogsphere and wonder if you are in an abyss.

Then you cannot hear the needle and it can only mean 2 things:
1) The abyss IS an abyss => bottomless; or
2) Your needle erm, hit someone. But then, someone should shout "AHHHHHH..." leh.. Hmm..

Anyway, sometimes I talk got NO point one. So... next.

Ya, my fellow blogger just told me someone I don't know reads my blog. Hmm.. I feel quite vulnerable here... like... someone I don't know KNOWS (something) about me? And then I start to look back at all my blogs and wonder what I have been writing.... *yawn* I AM quite boring lor! Hmm... But read at your own peril la.

Nevermind. Next.

Once I was telling Huat that I am so blessed cuz one second after I stepped into his car, it started pouring. Like POURing cats and dogs kind.

He just commented: "It's always about you, isn't it?"

To which I unashamedly and proudly proclaim, "Ya, but of course. Why not? I live MY life, so why can't everything be about ME?" *smile* I am very 自我 and 嚣张。So?

La la la...

So I am telling whoever-you-are who reads my blog... MY blog is about ME. Read if u like.

I still hate MONDAYS. Is there cure? Is there cure out there?

But I loved your cheer ups :)

MONDAYS.

Tuesday, November 21, 2006
Kickapoo - The Carbonated Joy Juice Recipe

I was just discussing with my colleagues... How did this beverage survived through the years without a single rebranding exercise. I mean, the logo is dunno-what and the name... huh? Kick-A-Poo?

So, is it because it's a "Product of Singapore"? Or is it because it's a "joy juice" (whatever that is...)?

Last I tried, it tastes like 7-Up to me.

But in a way, I'm really proud of it. To have survive thus far. We concluded there must be a steady base of faithful supporters of this drink somewhere.

And we also conclude, whatever we learnt from Uni about marketing - was crap.

Fortune - Wealth; large possessions; large estates; riches

OMI OMI! I just went to the salon on impulse.

Hmm... I really spent a bomb, not intended at all... but still... i did. And i think I look somewhat same same leh... really wanted a change but oh well.

Think I am really going to eat grass le - keyboard, camera repair, hair, blah blah blah... Dun like this feeling that I spent a lot of money. Argh...

But here's the pics as promised to some of u... juz wonder if it's worth my money and whether tomoro it will still look ok...

Frankly it's not the look I wanted, but the hairdresser just did her thing and convinced me along the way how this look is nice... oh well, I hope I achieve what I want in due time when the curls loosen.

Hee... I was sniffing so much there that the hairdresser kept telling me not to cry :p

I'm crying cuz I feel broke. Wahahhahhaaha...

Author's note: On 2nd look, think like not much change hor... actually you prob can't tell, but it's quite dry. And yes.... I am still wearing our TJ PE Tshirt. It's my PJ now, love it love it love it!

Tap - A hole or pipe through which liquid is drawn

My tap is spoilt. Here *points to nose*.

My happy flu bug does its regular round and is finally back. Think I am going to check when was the last time I blogged about being down with flu... I think there's one exactly one year ago.

I'm quite sure it's the same flu bug cuz...
1) I'm in good moods
2) My appetite is super good
3) Other than my eyes, which are teary cuz "that sneeze didn't happen", and my nose, which is blocked on the right side and getting sore from the rubbing with cheapo tissue paper, the rest of my body feels great

I'm kinda guilty to be taking MRT and being in office... I'm quite sure there's someone who sees me as a giant walking bug. And I'm sure there's someone who secretly wishes they catch the bug, so that they can take MC :p and I offer a HAPPY bug! Anyone?

Ok, despite me being upbeat about forcing myself to work despite being really (in symptoms) sick... (I really just need more sleep i think), I expect well-wishes from all you voyeurs out there!

Let your Get-Well-Soons begin!

Monday, November 20, 2006

In the course of the day, many ideas and inspirations fill my mind. But somehow I never get down to blogging them.

Of course, I share some of these thoughts with some of you and get the "You POS!" response.
(POS: "Piece of s***"; A term of endearment)

*grin* My friends love me.

I need a new modem. Think i'll pop by Singnet tonight. Otherwise I'll blog even lesser.

Thursday, November 16, 2006
Entertain - To engage the attention of agreeably

Yes, I ran out of blogs to read. Most of the people who used to be regular bloggers have slowly stopped blogging.

I am bored.

And no, I shall refrain myself from reading this depressing blog. No thanks to Bimbo Lee who introduced it to me. 讨厌! Hahhhaahha... seriously, read at your own risk. And NO, don't click on the : lovestory : section. Don't. Unless u need some romantic inspiration.

La la la...

I'm bored.

Anyway, I just remembered a sentence someone said to me before, triggered by a friend's plight.

"Guys don't wait forever."

I think the tone the sentence was said in (by a gal) was with a slight grudge and a tinge regret. Aiyo, neither do girls wait forever what. So it's fair :) And I say, guys have the right to move on too if the girl's not interested.

Someone entertain me please, after my Ritz Carlton lunch. *beams*

Wednesday, November 08, 2006
Lamp - An artificial source of visible illumination

Look what I just bought!

It's a lamp shade! Only $12, I bought the small one. This is so pretty right? When I laid my eyes on it, I immediately fell in love with it.

Well, if I liked the lamp shade, I guess it's only inevitable that I have to buy the lamp stand and bulbs. So this lamp is not-so-cheap but not that expensive laaaa....

:( I know. I'm supposed to save money. Tomorrow start. *pout*





Isn't it just lovely?

*swoon*

Can't wait to set it up. But colleague was wise and said we really shouldn't be walking into office with a big Ikea plastic bag after our lunch hour has long past.........

What wisdom.

:)

Thank - An expression of gratitude

Ben Chong, as my cell leader then, always reminded us to give thanks to God in everything. So it is taught in the Bible in many many verses also.

1 Thessalonians 5~
16 Be joyful always; 17 pray continually; 18 give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus. 19 Do not put out the Spirit's fire; 20 do not treat prophecies with contempt. 21 Test everything. Hold on to the good. 22 Avoid every kind of evil.

Many years ago when I asked my then-then-then cell leader James, "How? How do I know God's will for me? I wanna do more...!" (Back then-then-then I'm siao one la.) He always assured me that it takes a while for us to fully grasp our purposes in life, but in the meantime, God already showed us His Will for our lives in that verse - "...for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus. "

A good reminder for myself. The context is completely different now, nonetheless, the struggle to know God's will remain. Then I'm reminded, other than submitting, other than praying... give thanks in all circumstances. I'm reminded.

Let me share my thanksgiving. Regarding this sat's work duty, I spoke with the person-in-charge and she kindly let me report later than the rest, so I miss only about 1hr of my nieces' performance. On the other hand, my boss (without first letting me know) went to check with the person-in-charge if I can be excused for this sat's duty. This really touched me... because it affirms my belief that she is a great boss, and she really cares. I was pretty much resigned to the fact that I had to work but I guess she could tell I was upset. (Ok, I admit I pouted... but not the throwing-tantrum type of pout ok.) In a way, it doesn't matter anymore whether I had to work, since I have prepared myself for it. But knowing that my boss cares - that has become the greatest bonus I got out of this whole hooha.

Another thanksgiving is my confirmation. Thank God that 1) I'm confirmed, and 2) 6 months passed beautifully. No point worrying about the boo-boos I may make, crisis I may have to overcome, tears and hardwork that I may have to put in in the future. Just for this moment, I look back with immense gratitude that God blessed and fulfilled His promise to me.

Life's been pretty much like playing the interlude in the minor key recently. Guess even my blogs sound minor, if you understand what I mean.

Now playing the bridge that will lead me back to major key. And then everything will sound bright again :)

Crowd - A number of things collected, or closely pressed together

If you are wondering why I'm suddenly blogging again... got many reasons la.

But interestingly, I notice I either blog when I super eng, which now i'm not, or I blog when I am super stressed - to provide some respite.

Anyway, it is in line with my "W2 theory". (Sometimes its quite fun to read my cached blogs...)

- When I don't blog, I don't blog. When I blog, I blog a lot. -

In line with this theory, again, I made a boo-boo of overlapping appointments, again. *faintz* Jio-ed my girls on Monday for dinner on Wednesday (today) cuz I have events on Fri AND Sat. Then turned out I overlooked that I have a 6pm meeting today! And I only realised it yesterday at 1am. WHY AM I SO BLUR???

You know what this means?

I need my regular dosage of holidays soon.

Tuesday, November 07, 2006
Humour - A comic, absurd, or incongruous quality causing amusement

The inherent ability to laugh at myself is the basis of my sanity.

Anyway, I've recently made a number of boo-boos cuz my brain is soooo compartmentalized that 1 plus 1 does not add up to 2.

Let me give you an example:
Let's assume my brain has 26 parts, A to Z.
Part F (for family) knows 11 Nov is nieces' kinderland performances day.
Part W (for work) recently found out that on 11 Nov, shups has been activated to work at a public event. Part W kicks up a big fuss and collaborated with Part X (for expression) to activate "pout" action for the whole day.
Part M (for ministry) however, quietly remembers 11 Nov as a good sister's wedding all along, and kept, well, quiet, until shups! did a recount of this sat's stuff to update on her O2 Mini!

shups! resolves to put all her appointments down into O2 Mini calendar. But she also keeps forgetting to! She updates her O2 Mini Calendar and forgets to put in her table calendar at work. Or vice versa.

A disaster will one day strike. For now, it's all God's grace all the way.

*sigh sigh sigh*

Just multiply the above example by 3 and you have me come out of 3 recent major crisis in a chaotic week. And it's not like it never happened before lor.

*faintz faintz faintz*

Anyway, the first line has nothing to do with anything else I wrote. Neither does the title. I have become boring. (2 people just commented that my blog is boring :( Boo.... )

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I did a fast check and realised the same time last year, I was on blog holiday. Wow, guess some things don't change.

Same time in 2004, I _______________. I'm just amazed it's been 2 years.

Check out a cache of my old blog I found online below:

Friday, November 19, 2004
Carpe Diem - Sieze the Day

Hold it one moment. "1 - 2 - 3 - 4 - 5 - 6 - 7 - 8 - 9 -10." Breathe.
Have you realised we've only got 6 more weeks to 2005?

I can't help it, but numbers matter to me. I am officially 24 yrs and 6 mths old now. Worse, I don't even want to start counting backwards from the rest of my life to today. So many times I've projected the future when I was a teenager, and I thought things will fall into place by the time I reach the quarter-century, and now, I just heard from Oprah Winfrey that 20-something is the time you're just figuring out what you want to do with your life!
Ok, great, cuz somehow I've not gotten that figured, and supposedly I've another 5 years to do it. Am I getting into some kind of a quarter-life crisis? I hardly think so... Just that I think 30 is a tad to old to be starting life for me. Or issit?

Anyway, should you figure by now, this blog is probably not getting anywhere. If you want to save time you can stop reading from here. Wait, who is this reading my random thoughts. Who am I blogging to here? I'm going nutz.

I really am, ever since dunno when. It seems like there this constant tension within me that just won't cancel itself out. Everytime I think it's reached an equilibrium, something comes along and disrupts it in knee-jerk instance. Why? I think I am trying to figure myself out. The only thing I figured out about myself, which completely freaks me out, is that I am totally inconsistant. If I'm true to myself, I cannot even second-guess myself. Actually, I try to tell myself that I am not uniquely wierd. Let me explain that. Ever thought you're the only feeling a certain way, doing a certain very wrong thing and wondering whether you're normal, only to find that once you say it out, someone else totally understands what you are talking about and has experienced it before? Yes, that's true, it happens all the time! You are not alone in your idiosyncrasies! Only problem is, recently I'm getting less of that empathetic look but more of the "you're losing it" look. Hahha...

Anyway, I realise everytime I share about something emotional with my girlfriends, I'd stop and ask them "do you understand what I'm saying?" cuz sometimes, I am not so sure what I'm talking about myself... So comforting that they'll always nod and say yes. Amusing. Ya, I think I can't articulate myself well when I'm swarmed with emotions. Or when I'm talking to my newest crush. Same thing.

OK. Enough of this random musings. Before I lose you, the few readers who persevered through that thick paragraph of written diarrhoea(thank you thank you), here's some pics to keep you entertained.

Here's e pics of a "glam" event I went to... as u can see, for those who know which one is me, I cannot compare with those who went to "set their hair" and wore gowns! Real glam man... Venue: Shangri La (woohoo... my first time there!)




Just came back from a ministry camp over the long weekend. Definitely one of the best camps I went to. Why? Because we stayed in Holiday Inn Resort! I don't mean to come across as "mountain turtle", but I tell you, their service is EXCELLENT. Courteous staff, great place, good beds, nice bathtub, etc etc And what I spent most of my time doing? Playing bridge, pool, snooker, watching ESPN... Ah... sheer indulgence. Best camp ever. BEST. Hahahha...

So why the title? Because I'm anti-Carpe Diem! Muahahhaha... *going NUTZ* shucks... time to rethink what to do with my life before it's finally lost in meaningless bridge, pool, snooker, and watching ESPN...

There goes the internal struggle again.

My next entry, I blogged about how I fell off the treadmill after being inspired to jog. *roll eyes*

Thank God for a sense of humour.