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2007-03-23T00:22:00.000+08:00

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Loser - One that fails consistently, especially a person with bad luck or poor skills

2007-01-18T11:51:00.000+08:00

Ok, enough of the 故弄玄虚.

No one seems to be interested in my new blog so I might as well publicise it. Boo hoo... I feel so loser now. Hahahhahaah...

Anyway, kudos to all you internet-resourceful peeps! (Just a few of you...) Well done for finding me at the new address! :)

Find me here! Ok la, part of the reason I'm publicising the new blog here is cuz I want you to give me comments on the look... Please take part in the poll or leave comments!!!

Cheers!!! :)

Labyrinth - Any confusingly intricate state of things or events; a bewildering complex

2007-01-17T00:22:00.000+08:00

Hey friends, my blog has moved. I'm leaving the blogger community for greener and pinkier pastures. Hahhaa...

Find me if you can!

In the meanwhile, I'm going to keep this blog around. I mean, you never know when I'll come back to this blog again, right? :D

Try - To endeavour; to attempt

2007-01-16T16:41:00.000+08:00

Q1: How much courage does it take to try?
A1: x

Q2: How much courage does it take to try and succeed?
A2: x

Q3: How much courage does it take to try and fail?
A3: x

Thus,

"It takes as much courage to have tried and failed as it does to have tried and succeeded." - Anne Morrow Lindbergh

Tired - To reduce or exhaust the strength of, as by exertion; make weary; fatigue

2007-01-15T09:57:00.000+08:00

This is a true blue Blue Monday.

I had little sleep last night. Probably a cumulative of 3hrs?

I slept at 1.30am, woke up around 3am, and I was kept awake by sounds of coughing and a restless soul. And come 6am, the final little deep slumber I fell into was cut short by my sister-in-law's constant shouting at the girls, outside my door no less.

I was so frustrated but I kept my cool. It was not a Monday to be spoilt by me losing my cool. I am so tired, I have no strength to raise my voice or pump angry blood. I want to retreat into my little cave, but I have to be at work. I am so tired.

I'm taking a half day off. Unfortunately my finance department cannot churn something out for me and I will have to wait after lunch to make sure everything is in place, before I can go off. Maybe no need to go off even. I'm so tired.

I am so tired, but maybe I have the strength to continue until knock off.

Because we all know, once we manage to get out of bed on Monday morning, the week is initiated.

I am fine. I am just a little tired now.

Move - To prompt, actuate, or impel to some action

2007-01-13T11:18:00.000+08:00

If you have been praying, and doesn't seem to see it happening... take heart. I heard Pastor share a story, and something stuck in my head:

God heard our prayers. Somebody didn't move.

This is for a You who are disappointed.
This is for a You who wants to move. Someone out there needs you to MOVE.

Conclusion - A result, issue, or outcome

2007-01-11T21:13:00.000+08:00

Thank you friends for all your comments on the poll I did... and for all your pearls of wisdom :) I guess reading through the comments, fresh perspectives were thrown out which really brought out the point that life's really never about doing things the one fixed way, and we all exercise due flexibility and wisdom.

Well, having said that, my own conclusion will be that I'll base my future decisions on these 3 main questions I will ask myself, if I ever find myself in THE situation:

1) Is the issue settled in my heart?
ie. settling all the unnecessary emotions or overly-negative sentiments/negativity. Making sure I won't say hurtful things deliberately or bring in irrelevant arguments

2) Is the other party mature enough to hear what I have to say?
ie. is the other party known to be over-sensitive, not open to constructive advices, defensive, suspicious, immature...? Is the other person ready to hear something? Is this the best time to say it?

3) What is the end result I want?
ie. if I don't consider you important enough, forget it, I won't even bother to try to say anything at all, because saying it takes up toooo much energy (I'm energy-saving!) and the risks are too high. Risks of falling out, risks of being misunderstood etc. The action has to reap a positive outcome to be worthwhile. Hahha...

Oh well. Just musings anyway. Life's never a cardboard cut-out. Miracles happen on God's intervention and wisdom.. will definitely have chance to test out my theories in the future.

Conflict - Discord of action, feeling, or effect

2007-01-10T12:16:00.000+08:00

Poll: If you are really upset over something someone did, do you..
1) Express it, but risk sounding emotional and petty?
2) Try to put it across really nicely, but have the other person think it didn't really bother you and thus not showing much care about it?
3) Resolve it in your heart and never say it

I think I tried all ways. Seems like everyway is wrong.

I am not normally the sort that is very temperamental or flares up in anger easily, so I see myself as reasonably reasonable. I hope I am right about myself. STILL, I find there's a problem when I communicate how I really feel, it's like, once you choose to do it, the other party is bound to feel bad/take it personally/feel incriminated ANYWAY.

Maybe when telling someone something unpleasant, no matter how nicely it is put, it's bound to "ouch".

In theory, it is advisible to communicate your feelings. But in practical, not everyone can handle it... myself included.

I am tempted to take the safe extreme, ie. 4) that is to not be so in touch with how I feel. In theory, that too is "wrong" because it is not healthy, it's not being "real with yourself", it's "suppression". My good brother Kianseh, who knew the old me, will roll his eyes if he ever know I reverted to my old self.

The paradoxes kill me. Can someone explain to me please?

Author's note: This post is really a general post... please don't link it to any recent event or put a context to it.

iPhone - The real iPod killer

2007-01-10T10:22:00.000+08:00

I knew the news will be this: the New iPhone.
I can sense the iPod fans go googoogaga already...

But I'm no fan.

Egg - Such a body produced by a domestic bird

2007-01-09T17:59:00.000+08:00

Hmm, seems like everybody thinks that Jim looks delicious.

Good, good.

Hahaha.... :)

Monday - Start of the work week

2007-01-08T10:49:00.000+08:00

I woke up unhappy today. In fact, I think I had unhappy sleep. I tossed and turned and thought my bones ached.

I looked at myself in the mirror this morning and I wonder why I am so skinny. No worries, I'm ok with looking skinny although I am always complaining about people saying I'm skinny. I am wondering why I'm so skinny because I am starting to wonder if my body is feeling depressed.

"A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones." - Proverbs 17:22

Joy, where art thou?

"A man's spirit sustains him in sickness, but a crushed spirit who can bear?" - Proverbs 18:14

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I received 2 blessings via sms today BEFORE I woke up. One may be a general mass sms, but the other one is from my cell member especially for me. She told me yesterday that I cannot have Monday blues today, that I must live out Pastor's message starting from Monday!

It's a good reminder, thanks.

But I only have strength to wake up. Entertain people I have to smile to for a while. Look normal at work.

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I think it is more than dichotomy.

Clinch - To settle (a matter) decisively

2007-01-07T23:50:00.000+08:00

The romance of the FA Cup... i don't care what others say it is.

For me, it's winning the match on the 90+'02 minute.

God bless Ole Gunnar Solskjaer :)

FA - Football Association

2007-01-07T23:32:00.000+08:00

I'm watching the FA Cup game now, Man U vs Aston Villa...

3 things:
1. Why is the Villa goalkeeper wearing pajamas?
2. Henrik Larsson scores!
3. D*** that equaliser 1 minute ago. (74th minute)

Drool - To drivel, or drop saliva

2007-01-04T11:22:00.000+08:00

Check out this drool-worthy beauty... When my colleague sent me the photos... Aiyoooh... I was so tempted to ditch my O2...

Must. Control. Myself.

Plan - A design or scheme of arrangement

2007-01-03T17:37:00.000+08:00

How the planning of my Wednesday went... in chronological order:

Yesternight: Dinner with ex-colleagues
Status: Cancelled
Reason: Organiser says too many can't make it... postponed.

This afternoon: Movies
Status: Alone, then cancelled (see next)
Reason: Everyone else watched Charlotte's web without me *pout*

After afternoon: Oh i just recalled got leaders' meet!
Correction: quekieduck reminded me there's leaders' meet
Status: Not going
Reason: mama says it's for LN1728 only

After after afternoon, ie. evening: Dinner
Status: No go
Reason: Jio-er found other kakis.. boohoo.

Knock off: Movies again
Status: see if got tix :X

Victory - a success or triumph over an enemy in battle or war

2007-01-02T20:38:00.000+08:00

My first blog of the year!

I remember how I was never big on reflections and resolutions. I must have blogged about that last year. I guess I shall just roll along on this one, and I honestly have no idea what's gonna come up in the next few paragraphs or how many times I'd overwrite something I believe not suitable for the world wide web. Just write, something'll come up.

As I looked back at 2006, I felt like an invalid. Somehow the year zoomed past without my knowledge and I honestly do not really know how hours became days, and days became weeks and weeks became months and months added up to the year. It's like the bonus. After you get the lump sum, if you don't save it up or spend it on a big ticket item, slowly it'll deplete and you'll wonder where all the money went. Ok, lousy analogy, but something like that. Hahha..

We had a wonderful retreat over the Christmas weekend, and although I wasn't looking forward to spending Christmas away from home, I realised I was spending it with a bunch of fantastic people I call family as well. It was quite a good break and I think God really spoke to us. There's new strength and hope for the new year, and I feel optimistic that I will hear more from God in every area of my life, to be guided by the spirit. Yes, and to give up my rights to God.

I'll get there :p

It's going to be a year of victory ahead. I'm going to claim this!

Expiry - An expiration, especially of a contract or an agreement

2006-12-29T15:25:00.000+08:00

THE dateline is drawing near...

Sometimes, timing is everything.

Hallelujah - Praise the Lord

2006-12-29T15:12:00.000+08:00

Praise the Lord that internet is up! (I felt soooooo deprived)

Praise the Lord that it is Friday! TGIF!

Praise the Lord the we're staring at a 4-days long break in the face!

Praise the Lord that 2006 is coming to a close!

Praise the Lord that 2007 is a NEW year!

Praise the Lord that I have everyone I love around me :)

Praise the Lord that HE is!

Unappreciated - Not recognized, as to quality or worth

2006-12-22T14:53:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I ask myself: whose love are you coveting?

I see too many people feeling lousy about themselves because they are not Mr. Popular or Ms Congeniality. They feel that they are neglected, overlooked or unappreciated.

I think, it all boils down to one coveting the love not reciprocated, and turning a blind eye to those who really care and love you, sometimes to the point of neglecting, overlooking and not appreciating. I think there's nothing with feeling sad that XXX doesn't fancy you, just don't go around as though "the whole world owes you" and hurting the very people you should cherish. I do not refer to just one. Just something I've observed as a bystander. And I am just as guilty.

Whose love are you coveting? Isn't there Somebody who is always by your side?

In this Christmas season, let's count our blessings in those we have and not take anyone for granted.

Author: Heh, I must add my signature disclaimers - yes, I am just commenting on ONE aspect of the issue. Of course I recognise it can be more complex than this.

Team - To gather or join in a team, a band, or a cooperative effort

2006-12-22T10:35:00.000+08:00

My department had a sumptuous dinner at Cafe d'Amigos yesterday. Yummy... But a bit ex la..
The boss said he'd give us a bottle if we ordered at least 2 set meals... which was priced at $42+++ each. So, i did order one la. Well, it was quite worth the price :) The food's really good...

Anyway, here's the coup of prezzies from my colleagues. I am simply amazed at the amount of effort they put into the gifts. They're all very very wo-sim one lor. (I am NOT going to mention what I got for everyone... something BOR-sim, not even wrapped... *ashamed*)

One of my colleagues printed the photograph of our department at the Christmas party we planned for the division and made it into a card for each one of us. Don't we all look good?

I honestly feel I'm not very good with prezzies and stuff. Or I'm very bor-sim. I usually buy gifts either on a "by the way" basis or under a "compulsory" basis (eg. gift exchange). Very seldom do I feel like blessing someone with gifts. Only once in a blue moon when something strikes me as something someone mentioned they liked... or purely by inspiration, do I get the sudden spark to buy something for someone.

i.must.learn.

1st New Year resolution: I'll list the names of people I wanna thank for Christmas and buy personal gifts. And try not to forget birthdays.

Urgh...

Wade - To walk in a substance that yields to the feet

2006-12-22T09:29:00.000+08:00

Answering BLM's question... I'm supposed to go on a retreat with my spiritual family to Kluang.
Well, supposed, because if you've been keeping up with the news, Johor is flooded, particularly in Kluang and Muar currently. Not so funny when there has in fact been fatality in this instance... and the flood situation is worse than what our neighbours were prepared for...

So, the retreat is still onz.. venue TBC.

Segment - One of the parts into which something naturally separates or is divided; a division, portion, or section

2006-12-20T17:11:00.000+08:00

Due to an unfortunate fact that my brain functions in a segmented manner, it just dawned on me that...

I'll be missing opening prezzies with my family (my cute nieces!) on Christmas morning.

How depressing is that.

I think I need a cheer me up *hint hint* Can you please give me a present?

Perform II

2006-12-19T17:07:00.000+08:00

Yeah, wanted a photo with a view of the stage, and Steph sent this to my mail today... thanks Gal!

Thanks to Mr Loh for taking this photograph too :)

HIS eyes are on you.

2006-12-18T14:52:00.000+08:00

Ron was a fifteen-year-old teenager, a tenth-grade student at Granger High School. It was game day, and he was the only sophomore suiting up with the varsity team. Excitedly, he invited his mother to attend. It was her very first football game, and she promised to be there with several of her friends. The game finally ended, and she was waiting outside the locker room to drive Ron home.

"What did you think of the game, Mom? Did you see the three touchdown passes our team made and our tough defense, and the fumble on the kickoff return that we recovered?" he asked.

His mother replied, "Ron, you were magnificent. You have such presence, and I was proud of the pride you took in the way you looked. You pulled up your knee socks eleven times during the game, and I could tell you were perspiring in all those bulky pads because you got eight drinks and splashed water on your face twice. I really like how you went out of you way to pat number nineteen, number five and number ninety on the back every time they came off the field."

"Mom, how do you know all that? And how can you say I was magnificent? I didn't even play in the game."

His mother smiled and hugged him.

"Ron, I don't know anything about football. I didn't come here to watch the game. I came here to watch you!"

by Dan Clark As appeared in A 2nd Chicken Soup for the Women's Soul

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I told Ms Tulip Gal tt I'd find a happy story cuz she said the caterpillar story was too sad... hahahah.. But this story made me cry :p

You know... HE just whispered that HE is so proud of U.

Perform - To do, execute, or achieve something

2006-12-18T09:33:00.000+08:00

Hee... it's finally over, my End Term Performance. Yup, I'm sorry you haven't heard of it earlier, I really didn't want many friends to be around to see me make a fool of myself, so I only asked a few people to be there.

Basically, it's a kind of "graduation" performance that I had for the keyboard lessons I took. A "live" public performance at the school's Hark Cafe. I managed to "siam" a few performances for the past terms, but this one was for graduation and I guess my teacher's patience and tolerance for my "attitude" really encouraged me enough to want to try. Yes, I was the sulky and lazy student. *Hai...*

Guess I'm glad I did it. Something in me dig the adrenalin rush. I felt I could have done better but I guess, I did the best for my standard. Haha...

Actually I am looking back with a certain gladness about the whole thing.

Really glad to have known my teachers and my classmates. My latest teacher is this sweet pretty young patient person that really really tolerated my nonsense. Really. I'm thankful also for my previous teacher who in a way, taught me the "science" of music and made everything make sense. It was really really cool!

My classmates are all so fun and accepting. I was the "new" student, so at first, I wasn't really in their frequency. But as the days passed, I really grew to appreciate them for their joyfulness and especially during this period of stress, I believe we kinda bonded. The smses that flew between our mobiles were such kind words of encouragement. Nice... Thanks to my classmate who came with a camera and MD player to crystalize the night with pictures and finally a CD of our performances... waaaay cool. Not that I'll want to listen to my songs la...

Many thanks to the friends that made the effort to brave the rain, tiredness, dizziness from shuttling around and indigestion (from rushing thru dinner) to be there. I really appreciate everyone of you for coming. It really made a big difference. I'm glad I made a fool of myself in front of you and not anyone else... hahahah... and for bearing with my whinings :p I hope you had fun too.. And the flowers! Oh my... they are sooooo pretty... Thanks!!! I didn't quite notice how pretty they looked until today when I put them into the vase of Newater :) wahhh... pretty pretty..

Happy happy happy. Just remember the good... hahahah.... and forget the bad.

蒲公英 - Dandelion

2006-12-15T10:14:00.000+08:00

Hi guys, I guessed, and now confirmed, some of you dunno what's a 蒲公英.

As I always say, EVERYTHING can be found on the internet. I love Wikipedia (Chinese & En) !!!

This is a dandelion flower...

And I think you'll find this more familiar looking.

Pretty right? :)

Fairytale - An interesting but highly implausible story

2006-12-14T17:50:00.000+08:00

I think I told Ms 12mustardseeds I'd share this story if I find it :)

Here goes:

从前,在美丽的公园里,有一只可爱的毛毛虫,它每天在公园里无忧无虑的爬来爬去.有一天它快乐的哼着小调兴高采烈向前爬,不小心撞在了一株挺立的蒲公英的身上,"哎呦!" 蒲公英发出娇嫩的一声呢喃,毛毛虫好奇的仰起头,它端详着蒲公英翠绿的肤色,修长的身躯,有礼貌的问候一句;"你好呀,为什么你顶着黄色的太阳伞?真漂亮."蒲公英缓缓的底下头,微笑着说;"那是未来,有一天它会带着梦想起飞."毛毛虫不解的看着蒲公英,"那我为什么不能飞?我们做朋友好吗?"蒲公英说:"好呀,总有一天你也会飞的,只要带着心中的信念."从此以后,毛毛虫每天都会爬来看蒲公英,和她讲公园中其它地方的故事,蒲公英会专心的听、,她或笑或点头或忧郁,却从来没有哭过,毛毛虫喜欢讲故事给蒲公英听,因为它喜欢在故事过后注视蒲公英的表情.那种阳光般温暖的表情.
日子一天一天的过去,蒲公英翠绿的身躯开始发黄,头上那顶黄色的太阳伞也变成了一个如雪般白色的茸球.毛毛虫仍然每天来看蒲公英,带给它形形色色的故事,那天,毛毛虫给蒲公英江它在公园的某个角落里看到一对情侣因前程分手的经过,那一次,蒲公英哭了,第一次把眼泪撒在了风里,毛毛虫心痛的去擦拭蒲公英的眼泪,泪珠是热的,却冷冷的滚进了毛毛虫的心里.
秋天来了,叶子铺满了公园,金色世界中的一点白色是那么显眼,毛毛虫最后一次见到蒲公英,风起的时候,蒲公英白色的茸毛在秋风中飘散开来.毛毛虫追啊追,直到所有白色都消逝.它明白,蒲公英迟早必须去旅行,而毛毛虫一个人独睡时,却发现无论在深夜或清晨醒来时总是睡在那枯黄的蒲公英杆边,在沉睡中继续寻找着蒲公英的气息,然后,它闭上眼睛便不再感到孤单害怕,日子在毛毛虫的思念中一天天流走.
某一天,当毛毛虫来到湖边散步,竟发现自己已经长了漂亮的翅膀,它试着扇动翅膀,它飞起来了,它知道那是为了再见到蒲公英的信念而生,于是毛毛虫开始快乐起来,它相信总有一天它会再见到蒲公英,它每天飞呀飞的,从不停息,但始终也没有见到蒲公英,天渐渐的冷了,其它蝴蝶都飞到温暖的地方去了,只有当初的毛毛虫还守在那株株枯黄的蒲公英身边,下雪了,白色的雪覆盖在了毛毛虫和蒲公英的身上,毛毛虫的呼吸慢慢的停止了,但它并不痛苦,因为它陪在蒲公英的身边,它看到蒲公英温暖的脸.
后记:一万年后的某个午后,一位科学家从排列的化石前拿出最特别的一块,一只把蒲公英枯枝夹在两片翅膀间的蝴蝶.他想知道为什么,蝴蝶要极力的把蒲公英夹在翅膀间?

Forfeit - To lose; lose the right to

2006-12-14T15:38:00.000+08:00

"Customers must note that the carriage forward must be utilised within the present month: only a maximum amount of up to the subscribed plan free usage will be carried forward."

Omi. I've wasted more than 70+++ hrs of my Singnet hours just because my ADSL modem's spoilt! I'm so peeved :(

Argh... anyone has an ADSL modem to spare? Anyone?

Decided - Free from ambiguity

2006-12-07T11:00:00.000+08:00

Today no class.
No more classes.
My Thursday nights will never be the same again.

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Should I start another course? What course?
Should I leave it free? For who? Myself or you?

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I think I already had a decision in mind yesterday. I know what was being said, but I felt I made a decision and it doesn't seem like I will waver in the near future.

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Boo Boo - Errors; mistakes

2006-12-05T10:39:00.000+08:00

I made a boo boo at work again. I forgot to switch off the main switch to our auditorium on Sat that has implications more immediate than colonies of penguines dying. The facilities guy only found out this morning.

WHY am I so blur and forgetful? Do NOT ever trust me to take care of your house for you, I may blow it up.

WHY couldn't I just say no to help?

:( :( :(

Pls pray that none of the equipment's burnt up k?

*whine*

Exterminate - To destroy utterly; to cut off

2006-12-04T11:00:00.000+08:00

When it comes to things I am not happy with, my response is usually swift.

ELIMINATE!

Not the usual procrastinating self in this case. I prefer to take a harsh approach albeit unwise at times. Perhaps my stubborness takes the form of firm decisions, when actually made.

I don't usually change my mind. Few things are exceptions.

Few. And I will eliminate the few too.

MUAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAH!

Author's note: Imagine I was speaking in the Terminator tone. Hahha... i'm amusing myself here. Really. hhaahahaha...

On a serious note, really serious note, I am very very very lost. I've ran on a treadmill, with no destination, no purpose, not point. I AM coming to the sudden realisation that in the very areas of my life that bothers me to the point of crippling, where I expand countless hours pondering upon in my head, I am getting nowhere. NOWHERE.

I am left feeling like I've owed it to someone, like I've let somebody down, like I'm not been good enough or failed some expectations. I am indignant, yet fully guilty.

It's all in my head, and no action. I'm crippled by an unknown enemy.

What should I do?

Saturday - The day following Friday

2006-12-02T14:33:00.000+08:00

WHY?

Why am I back in office on Saturday???

Pele - O Rei do Futebol

2006-12-01T10:50:00.000+08:00

Yes, I'm back from a bout of stomach flu. Boo... It's nothing like my happy bug I assure u. I hate stomach flu.

And because of it, I hadn't blogged about my encounter with the GREAT PELE. Yes people I met him! In fact, I shook his hand, got a greeting kiss from him, got his signature on the back of my O2 mini and photographs to prove it all! hahaha... Just that the cameraman is from an events company... not sure if I'll be able to get my hands on the photos... but I want lorrr~!

It was really an unexpected meeting la, my boss and I had no idea what we were in for, cuz we were told to go somewhere very very last minute. I am not going to openly publicise what the event was for, will tell you offline la.

BUT I WAS SO HAPPY TO SEE PELE THERE!

Too bad half the excitement was doused by the stupid stomach flu. Bleah!

Fond - Doted on; regarded with affection

2006-11-28T12:14:00.000+08:00

My boss has gone on 1 week leave. Before she left, I was thinking, "Yeah! no boss for 1 week!"
Now that she's gone... I think I'll miss her.

And my mummy has been in KL since Sep. And she is not coming back until end next month! Boohoo...

Argh..! I don't like to miss people. *pout*

Alone - By oneself

2006-11-27T17:31:00.000+08:00

Sometimes you throw a needle into the blogsphere and wonder if you are in an abyss.

Then you cannot hear the needle and it can only mean 2 things:
1) The abyss IS an abyss => bottomless; or
2) Your needle erm, hit someone. But then, someone should shout "AHHHHHH..." leh.. Hmm..

Anyway, sometimes I talk got NO point one. So... next.

Ya, my fellow blogger just told me someone I don't know reads my blog. Hmm.. I feel quite vulnerable here... like... someone I don't know KNOWS (something) about me? And then I start to look back at all my blogs and wonder what I have been writing.... *yawn* I AM quite boring lor! Hmm... But read at your own peril la.

Nevermind. Next.

Once I was telling Huat that I am so blessed cuz one second after I stepped into his car, it started pouring. Like POURing cats and dogs kind.

He just commented: "It's always about you, isn't it?"

To which I unashamedly and proudly proclaim, "Ya, but of course. Why not? I live MY life, so why can't everything be about ME?" *smile* I am very 自我 and 嚣张。So?

La la la...

So I am telling whoever-you-are who reads my blog... MY blog is about ME. Read if u like.

I still hate MONDAYS. Is there cure? Is there cure out there?

But I loved your cheer ups :)

2006-11-27T10:32:00.000+08:00

MONDAYS.

Kickapoo - The Carbonated Joy Juice Recipe

2006-11-21T23:54:00.000+08:00

I was just discussing with my colleagues... How did this beverage survived through the years without a single rebranding exercise. I mean, the logo is dunno-what and the name... huh? Kick-A-Poo?

So, is it because it's a "Product of Singapore"? Or is it because it's a "joy juice" (whatever that is...)?

Last I tried, it tastes like 7-Up to me.

But in a way, I'm really proud of it. To have survive thus far. We concluded there must be a steady base of faithful supporters of this drink somewhere.

And we also conclude, whatever we learnt from Uni about marketing - was crap.

Fortune - Wealth; large possessions; large estates; riches

2006-11-21T23:15:00.000+08:00

OMI OMI! I just went to the salon on impulse.

Hmm... I really spent a bomb, not intended at all... but still... i did. And i think I look somewhat same same leh... really wanted a change but oh well.

Think I am really going to eat grass le - keyboard, camera repair, hair, blah blah blah... Dun like this feeling that I spent a lot of money. Argh...

But here's the pics as promised to some of u... juz wonder if it's worth my money and whether tomoro it will still look ok...

Frankly it's not the look I wanted, but the hairdresser just did her thing and convinced me along the way how this look is nice... oh well, I hope I achieve what I want in due time when the curls loosen.

Hee... I was sniffing so much there that the hairdresser kept telling me not to cry :p

I'm crying cuz I feel broke. Wahahhahhaaha...

Author's note: On 2nd look, think like not much change hor... actually you prob can't tell, but it's quite dry. And yes.... I am still wearing our TJ PE Tshirt. It's my PJ now, love it love it love it!

Tap - A hole or pipe through which liquid is drawn

2006-11-21T11:57:00.000+08:00

My tap is spoilt. Here *points to nose*.

My happy flu bug does its regular round and is finally back. Think I am going to check when was the last time I blogged about being down with flu... I think there's one exactly one year ago.

I'm quite sure it's the same flu bug cuz...
1) I'm in good moods
2) My appetite is super good
3) Other than my eyes, which are teary cuz "that sneeze didn't happen", and my nose, which is blocked on the right side and getting sore from the rubbing with cheapo tissue paper, the rest of my body feels great

I'm kinda guilty to be taking MRT and being in office... I'm quite sure there's someone who sees me as a giant walking bug. And I'm sure there's someone who secretly wishes they catch the bug, so that they can take MC :p and I offer a HAPPY bug! Anyone?

Ok, despite me being upbeat about forcing myself to work despite being really (in symptoms) sick... (I really just need more sleep i think), I expect well-wishes from all you voyeurs out there!

Let your Get-Well-Soons begin!

2006-11-20T18:02:00.000+08:00

In the course of the day, many ideas and inspirations fill my mind. But somehow I never get down to blogging them.

Of course, I share some of these thoughts with some of you and get the "You POS!" response.
(POS: "Piece of s***"; A term of endearment)

*grin* My friends love me.

I need a new modem. Think i'll pop by Singnet tonight. Otherwise I'll blog even lesser.

Entertain - To engage the attention of agreeably

2006-11-16T10:43:00.000+08:00

Yes, I ran out of blogs to read. Most of the people who used to be regular bloggers have slowly stopped blogging.

I am bored.

And no, I shall refrain myself from reading this depressing blog. No thanks to Bimbo Lee who introduced it to me. 讨厌! Hahhhaahha... seriously, read at your own risk. And NO, don't click on the : lovestory : section. Don't. Unless u need some romantic inspiration.

La la la...

I'm bored.

Anyway, I just remembered a sentence someone said to me before, triggered by a friend's plight.

"Guys don't wait forever."

I think the tone the sentence was said in (by a gal) was with a slight grudge and a tinge regret. Aiyo, neither do girls wait forever what. So it's fair :) And I say, guys have the right to move on too if the girl's not interested.

Someone entertain me please, after my Ritz Carlton lunch. *beams*

Lamp - An artificial source of visible illumination

2006-11-08T15:28:00.000+08:00

Look what I just bought!

It's a lamp shade! Only $12, I bought the small one. This is so pretty right? When I laid my eyes on it, I immediately fell in love with it.

Well, if I liked the lamp shade, I guess it's only inevitable that I have to buy the lamp stand and bulbs. So this lamp is not-so-cheap but not that expensive laaaa....

:( I know. I'm supposed to save money. Tomorrow start. *pout*

Isn't it just lovely?

*swoon*

Can't wait to set it up. But colleague was wise and said we really shouldn't be walking into office with a big Ikea plastic bag after our lunch hour has long past.........

What wisdom.

:)

Thank - An expression of gratitude

2006-11-08T11:30:00.000+08:00

Ben Chong, as my cell leader then, always reminded us to give thanks to God in everything. So it is taught in the Bible in many many verses also.

1 Thessalonians 5~
16 Be joyful always; 17 pray continually; 18 give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus. 19 Do not put out the Spirit's fire; 20 do not treat prophecies with contempt. 21 Test everything. Hold on to the good. 22 Avoid every kind of evil.

Many years ago when I asked my then-then-then cell leader James, "How? How do I know God's will for me? I wanna do more...!" (Back then-then-then I'm siao one la.) He always assured me that it takes a while for us to fully grasp our purposes in life, but in the meantime, God already showed us His Will for our lives in that verse - "...for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus. "

A good reminder for myself. The context is completely different now, nonetheless, the struggle to know God's will remain. Then I'm reminded, other than submitting, other than praying... give thanks in all circumstances. I'm reminded.

Let me share my thanksgiving. Regarding this sat's work duty, I spoke with the person-in-charge and she kindly let me report later than the rest, so I miss only about 1hr of my nieces' performance. On the other hand, my boss (without first letting me know) went to check with the person-in-charge if I can be excused for this sat's duty. This really touched me... because it affirms my belief that she is a great boss, and she really cares. I was pretty much resigned to the fact that I had to work but I guess she could tell I was upset. (Ok, I admit I pouted... but not the throwing-tantrum type of pout ok.) In a way, it doesn't matter anymore whether I had to work, since I have prepared myself for it. But knowing that my boss cares - that has become the greatest bonus I got out of this whole hooha.

Another thanksgiving is my confirmation. Thank God that 1) I'm confirmed, and 2) 6 months passed beautifully. No point worrying about the boo-boos I may make, crisis I may have to overcome, tears and hardwork that I may have to put in in the future. Just for this moment, I look back with immense gratitude that God blessed and fulfilled His promise to me.

Life's been pretty much like playing the interlude in the minor key recently. Guess even my blogs sound minor, if you understand what I mean.

Now playing the bridge that will lead me back to major key. And then everything will sound bright again :)

Crowd - A number of things collected, or closely pressed together

2006-11-08T09:24:00.000+08:00

If you are wondering why I'm suddenly blogging again... got many reasons la.

But interestingly, I notice I either blog when I super eng, which now i'm not, or I blog when I am super stressed - to provide some respite.

Anyway, it is in line with my "W2 theory". (Sometimes its quite fun to read my cached blogs...)

- When I don't blog, I don't blog. When I blog, I blog a lot. -

In line with this theory, again, I made a boo-boo of overlapping appointments, again. *faintz* Jio-ed my girls on Monday for dinner on Wednesday (today) cuz I have events on Fri AND Sat. Then turned out I overlooked that I have a 6pm meeting today! And I only realised it yesterday at 1am. WHY AM I SO BLUR???

You know what this means?

I need my regular dosage of holidays soon.

Humour - A comic, absurd, or incongruous quality causing amusement

2006-11-07T16:51:00.000+08:00

The inherent ability to laugh at myself is the basis of my sanity.

Anyway, I've recently made a number of boo-boos cuz my brain is soooo compartmentalized that 1 plus 1 does not add up to 2.

Let me give you an example:
Let's assume my brain has 26 parts, A to Z.
Part F (for family) knows 11 Nov is nieces' kinderland performances day.
Part W (for work) recently found out that on 11 Nov, shups has been activated to work at a public event. Part W kicks up a big fuss and collaborated with Part X (for expression) to activate "pout" action for the whole day.
Part M (for ministry) however, quietly remembers 11 Nov as a good sister's wedding all along, and kept, well, quiet, until shups! did a recount of this sat's stuff to update on her O2 Mini!

shups! resolves to put all her appointments down into O2 Mini calendar. But she also keeps forgetting to! She updates her O2 Mini Calendar and forgets to put in her table calendar at work. Or vice versa.

A disaster will one day strike. For now, it's all God's grace all the way.

*sigh sigh sigh*

Just multiply the above example by 3 and you have me come out of 3 recent major crisis in a chaotic week. And it's not like it never happened before lor.

*faintz faintz faintz*

Anyway, the first line has nothing to do with anything else I wrote. Neither does the title. I have become boring. (2 people just commented that my blog is boring :( Boo.... )

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I did a fast check and realised the same time last year, I was on blog holiday. Wow, guess some things don't change.

Same time in 2004, I _______________. I'm just amazed it's been 2 years.

Check out a cache of my old blog I found online below:

Friday, November 19, 2004
Carpe Diem - Sieze the Day

Hold it one moment. "1 - 2 - 3 - 4 - 5 - 6 - 7 - 8 - 9 -10." Breathe.
Have you realised we've only got 6 more weeks to 2005?

I can't help it, but numbers matter to me. I am officially 24 yrs and 6 mths old now. Worse, I don't even want to start counting backwards from the rest of my life to today. So many times I've projected the future when I was a teenager, and I thought things will fall into place by the time I reach the quarter-century, and now, I just heard from Oprah Winfrey that 20-something is the time you're just figuring out what you want to do with your life!
Ok, great, cuz somehow I've not gotten that figured, and supposedly I've another 5 years to do it. Am I getting into some kind of a quarter-life crisis? I hardly think so... Just that I think 30 is a tad to old to be starting life for me. Or issit?

Anyway, should you figure by now, this blog is probably not getting anywhere. If you want to save time you can stop reading from here. Wait, who is this reading my random thoughts. Who am I blogging to here? I'm going nutz.

I really am, ever since dunno when. It seems like there this constant tension within me that just won't cancel itself out. Everytime I think it's reached an equilibrium, something comes along and disrupts it in knee-jerk instance. Why? I think I am trying to figure myself out. The only thing I figured out about myself, which completely freaks me out, is that I am totally inconsistant. If I'm true to myself, I cannot even second-guess myself. Actually, I try to tell myself that I am not uniquely wierd. Let me explain that. Ever thought you're the only feeling a certain way, doing a certain very wrong thing and wondering whether you're normal, only to find that once you say it out, someone else totally understands what you are talking about and has experienced it before? Yes, that's true, it happens all the time! You are not alone in your idiosyncrasies! Only problem is, recently I'm getting less of that empathetic look but more of the "you're losing it" look. Hahha...

Anyway, I realise everytime I share about something emotional with my girlfriends, I'd stop and ask them "do you understand what I'm saying?" cuz sometimes, I am not so sure what I'm talking about myself... So comforting that they'll always nod and say yes. Amusing. Ya, I think I can't articulate myself well when I'm swarmed with emotions. Or when I'm talking to my newest crush. Same thing.

OK. Enough of this random musings. Before I lose you, the few readers who persevered through that thick paragraph of written diarrhoea(thank you thank you), here's some pics to keep you entertained.

Here's e pics of a "glam" event I went to... as u can see, for those who know which one is me, I cannot compare with those who went to "set their hair" and wore gowns! Real glam man... Venue: Shangri La (woohoo... my first time there!)

Just came back from a ministry camp over the long weekend. Definitely one of the best camps I went to. Why? Because we stayed in Holiday Inn Resort! I don't mean to come across as "mountain turtle", but I tell you, their service is EXCELLENT. Courteous staff, great place, good beds, nice bathtub, etc etc And what I spent most of my time doing? Playing bridge, pool, snooker, watching ESPN... Ah... sheer indulgence. Best camp ever. BEST. Hahahha...

So why the title? Because I'm anti-Carpe Diem! Muahahhaha... *going NUTZ* shucks... time to rethink what to do with my life before it's finally lost in meaningless bridge, pool, snooker, and watching ESPN...

There goes the internal struggle again.

My next entry, I blogged about how I fell off the treadmill after being inspired to jog. *roll eyes*

Thank God for a sense of humour.

Jump - To parachute from an aircraft

2006-10-25T18:59:00.000+08:00

I looked up to Number 7.

Step. Step. Step. Step. Step. Step. Step.

I looked down. No challenge.

Jump.

Ta-da!

Safe and sound.

It's a game I used to play when I was 10 years old. I challenged myself to jump off steps at the HDB lobby near my uncle's provision shop. It was my childhood playground - I learnt Chinese chess from the older girl from the coffeeshop, learnt to cycle at the back alley from some older boy who I call “无名哥哥“, played catching all around the block, pounced on countless flies (don't ask) and fed the alley cats... childhood games :)

So as I was saying, I used to challenge myself by jumping off steps. As the story goes, at the height of my prime, I used to jump off the 12th step. (Or 14th? I can't remember.) Perhaps that's how I trained my ankles to be strong, but being lightweight sure helps I guess.

I had an appetite for thrills. And risks.

If natural progression is anything to go by, I should be doing sky-diving by now.

Sadly, the natural progression in this instance was not going the way of arithmetic progression, instead it went the bell-curve way. At a certain point, what went up came down. The limiting factor being the conception of safety. Or rather, danger.

You know what?

I still want to sky-dive.

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Within safe boundaries, belief that I can do something, coupled with unrelenting faith, add a bit of determination, plus a pinch of wisdom, minus fear of the unknown, minus discouraging doubts... And of course, with every plan wholly surrendered to God in prayer.

I am sure somewhere along the line I can balance all of these and find my place.

I can fine-tune this equation along the way :D

Oversight - An overlooking; an omission; an error

2006-09-26T14:29:00.000+08:00

I've been such an idiot. I was wondering why no one reads my blog and leaves comments anymore... *wails*

Then Ms BB msned me to say I must approve her comment. Eh? *stunned*

Checked blog, eh, no comment leh...

*Point of realisation* Darn. I switch the "moderate comment" option on...

I'm sorry pals, thanks for all your comments. I really had no idea I had 8 comments pending approval... *slaps forehead*

Thanks for reading me. I will continue blogging. Soon.

Zhng - Modify; make better

2006-09-25T12:31:00.000+08:00

"I am going to zhng my blog until I like it enough to blog."

Definitions:
When I say "I am going to", it doesn't have a definite timeline. It could be an intention that remains as an intention until something or someone jolts me out of the procrastination.

When I say "zhng my blog", it means I want to make it me. So that I will love to blog on it. I am tempted to recreate my blog to look like my old blog, which makes me realise I'm so childish. Why must be the same then happy? Cannot make it better meh? I think part of me don't believe I can do better. So I will zhng my blog. To prove to myself I know how to improve. Hahhaa... duh...

In the meantime... I don't gian blogging. The blog's not me, the layout's not me, the content's not me, the me's not me.

What is me? I dunno. This is the real blogger's block.

I am shups!. Till I find out exactly what that is...

Hot - Very good or impressive

2006-09-23T15:55:00.000+08:00

Xabi Alonso is so hot.

Tear - This fluid appearing in or flowing from the eye as the result of emotion

2006-09-12T00:14:00.000+08:00

Ever felt like your tears were flowing back into yourself and you taste the saline down your throat?

I might as well announce this: I can tear in a millisecond.

Ta-da! There you have it. I cry easily, anywhere, anytime. I shall not be ashamed of it.

Perhaps there are dozens of efficient neurons connecting my eyes/ears to my brain to my heart to my eyes, passing messages at 100,000km/hr.

Perhaps my hypersensitive tear ducts just have a life of their own and tear whenever they please?

Whatever the case, I shall not feel paiseh that I cried at King Kong no more. HMPH.

Am I too emotional when I cried while a friend was sharing about her stricken mother? Is it acceptable for me to cry when I feel touched by a courageous deed? Will I be perceived as a nutcase if I suddenly tear for no apparent reason? Can I just cry when I see suffering please?

I guess not. But I cannot help it. Worse, I look terrible when I cry. My eyes and nose turn red so easily :(

Got cure or not? *sigh*

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On a lighter note, I think I smile as easily as I cry.

Newtrients - Nutrients from NeWater

2006-09-04T09:52:00.000+08:00

I think Mr BLM may be right about NeWater :p

These flowers were droopy when I received it on Thusday, almost dead from dehydration on Friday, and they are miraculously looking very fresh and firm today!

Miracle water.... NeWater... Hmm...

Jellyfish - Large siphonophore having a bladderlike float and stinging tentacles

2006-09-03T02:13:00.000+08:00

Silly jazzy song I heard in 2 friends' cars. I like the term "lazy jellyfish" :) it tickles me.

Let's do it

Birds do it, bees do it
Even educated fleas do it
Let's do it, let's fall in love

In Spain, the best upper sets do it
Lithuanians and Letts do it
Let's do it, let's fall in love

The Dutch in old Amsterdam do it
Not to mention the Fins
Folks in Siam do it - think of Siamese twins

Some Argentines, without means, do it
People say in Boston even beans do it
Let's do it, let's fall in love

Romantic sponges, they say, do it
Oysters down in oyster bay do it
Let's do it, let's fall in love

Cold Cape Cod clams, 'gainst their wish, do it
Even lazy jellyfish, do it
Let's do it, let's fall in love

Electric eels I might add do it
Though it shocks em I know
Why ask if shad do it - Waiter bring me "shad roe"

In shallow shoals English soles do it
Goldfish in the privacy of bowls do it
Let's do it, let's fall in love

Random - Statistics. of or characterizing a process of selection in which each item of a set has an equal probability of being chosen

2006-09-03T01:12:00.000+08:00

On roaming state now. Roaming random ramblings :)

I'm watching England tramp all over Andorra now. I passed the point of being entertained. At 5-0, Andorra looked every part the sorry figure. 3 times an Andorra player went to the ground and stayed down in pain. You wonder whether it's a very violent England team or a very sissy Andorra team. Whatever. Time to blog.

On the other hand, watching Man U demolish Fulham in their opener was exhilarating.

I just wondered why any team would wanna wear a red card on their jersey. *shakes head in disbelief*

Had a good time of catching up with a dear old fren. I wasn't in the best of moods to talk actually, but I guess the sense of familiarity was priceless for an afternoon of hangout. Familiar but a different us.

We used to be really close friends in secondary school. My friend was reminiscing that time we used to walk to school together in the morning, watch TV together over the phone and we were amazed how we could just hold on to the phone not talking. I was also reminded that I once fell asleep on the other line while a joke was being told. Funny incidences but my memory's failing me. I still sleep anywhere and everywhere. Some things never change :)

I was asked what I missed about Secondary school that I wished I'm back there. I gave quite a generic answer... carefree days, no stress... but if you are reading this, I should have told you just now - I really thank God you were a part of the beautiful memory. Thank you.

Ok, that's quite about the little blogging I wanted to do. Bed time for now.

Wither - To fade; to lose freshness

2006-09-01T10:44:00.000+08:00

NeWater - I drank a mouthful. Oh-kaay, NO. No more. Since May, the bottle of NeWater's been left on my table for reasons unknown.

Check out the new addition to my vase yesterday.

It's a little farewell gift from my colleague. A white Gerbera with little yellow spotty sidekicks. It even comes with a note: If life can't be a bed of roses; surely there can be a moment of happy gerberas.

Cute :)

Alas, the happy gerbera looked half dead in its dehydrated state and I need to rescue it!

===> NeWater!

I'm saving 2 Gerberas (including my boss' one) with a vase of NeWater, of just the right shape and height! :) See see? Sometimes we don't know why we keep rubbish and not want to throw them away... Sometimes they can be soooo useful!

Today weather very good.

Climate - The meteorological conditions

2006-08-31T11:52:00.000+08:00

The weather is funny.

One week it's sunny, very sunny, and one week its bleak. Very bleak. The trend has been so. Even a blue chip like our country, supposedly in the tropics faces storms. Then again, the weather hasn't been quite the same, has it? Nope it hasn't. Whether it is the El Niño and La Niña effect, the weather is no longer predictable.

Today is a rainy day.

The weather is bad.

Nautical - Of or pertaining to seamen, to the art of navigation, or to ships

2006-08-29T14:29:00.000+08:00

I am having this slight liking for the passing nautical trend. Yes, call me the late adopter.

Many thanks to Gabrielle who passed me this website... She bought a very very pretty pair of shoes called Sailor Love. Nice shoes! I like this other pair called Hi' Sailor... but I doubt I'll buy la... my mum will kill me...

2006-08-28T15:05:00.000+08:00

10 things I hate about you

I hate the way you talk to me,
and the way you cut your hair.

I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots
and the way you read my mind.

I hate you so much it makes me sick,
it even makes me rhyme.

I hate the way you're always right,
I hate it when you lie.

I hate it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.

I hate it when you're not around,
and the fact that you didn't call.

But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,
not even close
not even a little bit
not even at all.

- From the movie 10 things I hate about you.

Nice movie :)

Serve - To contribute to; promote

2006-08-25T09:36:00.000+08:00

Came across this quote: "The best way to find yourself is to lose yourself in the service of others." - Mahatma Gandhi

Eh, I'd say, the best way to find yourself is to NOT lose yourself while serving others. Maybe I'm too individualistic and self-centred. *shrugs*

Animation - An animated cartoon

2006-08-24T11:27:00.000+08:00

So cuuuuuuute so cute so cute! Saw this from BLM's site.

Check out http://www.hoopsandyoyo.com/ . There's lotsa cool stuff there... :)

Lavender - Clusters of small purplish flowers that yield an oil used in perfumery

2006-08-23T14:13:00.000+08:00

I finally bought a vase! I'm so happy... If I am happier, i'm gonna buy MORE vases to decorate my workstation!

If you look carefully, these Forget Me Nots are actually rejects from our latest campaign, doomed for the cleaner aunty's trash cart. I saved them from their fate and arranged them a little... viola! Free flowers!

漂亮吧！

I don't mind fresh flowers too you know... *hint hint*

Accustom - To familiarize, as by constant practice, use, or habit

2006-08-22T10:04:00.000+08:00

I am so trying to get used to my new blog. Have I mentioned I am very 慢热？

Like no gian to blog now until I get my blog template right, the look that I want. *Sigh* And I happen to be quite loyal to the things I like... *bleah*

Seity - Peculiar to one's self

2006-08-21T12:24:00.000+08:00

A new blog! :)

I chose shupseity cuz it sounded like ipseity, which means selfhood; individual identity, individuality. I was thinking, "wah, sounds so individsualistic.."

Thanks to quekie who actually went to check the meaning of seity (I mean, I didn't even know it's a word ok...) and found the above meaning which sounded nice! Exactly what I wanted in a new title for my blog.

So here you are, my newest entry on my new blog provider:
shupseity.blogspot.com